Will be home for Christmas!

After stayed here for 4 years, been through my up and down, love and break, or even almost die & alive...... I had a very colourful lifetime in South Africa. No matter how great is my life, how hard that i've been through, how sad am i during the divorce, I have to thank GOD with all my heart, GOD brought my daughter Roxanne to the world.

This is my daughter, Roxanne. She is everything to me, she is the reason i am still living today. I am not that kinda person that love kids, i should say i am those who hate kids, who think kids are always annoyed. But GOD changed my view, changed my thoughts. The moment she first cry, she first look at me, hold my finger, and the first moment she called me "BABA", all i feel is the miracle of GOD creating life.

"Kids are gifts from GOD." i never believe this phrase but now i do thank GOD for giving me this lovely daughter. The crying became angelic voice, the naughty became the cute personality of hers, and the smile of her, became the meaning of my life.

I am not a good father, i did not give her a complete family. I did not provide her enough love that she deserved. I am failure in my family, and i should give her all i can. This time i go back to Malaysia, is just to accompany her and to be with her all time. I missed out too much, i missed out her first birthday, her first walk, and even the first talk. She is just so talkative like me, non-stop talking. i wanna talk to her for so much, i wanna let her know how much i love her. And of course, i wanna let her know how much i feel sorry to her, that i have not be a good father.

Many of you has became a parent, somehow lots of you became a grand parent. I would love to wish you all Merry Christmas and GOD bless you all. This happiness is something that cannot change with money, something that does not come easily. For sure there are a lot of anger, sadness, unhappy that happened all this way. But when you think carefully, the tears & joys that happened, this is what we called LIFE. LIFE is not just party, not just drinking all the times. In the other hand, LIFE can defined as the effort you have to put, the hard work that you been through, those experience that formed you the meaning of LIFE.

I am not a wise man , and i am not old enough to say those things, I should not share this in the company blog. Its just my personal feelings, on the last day of mine to be in South Africa, i can say that, the best and the only present i got from South Africa, is my dearest daughter, Roxanne.

Last but not least, I wish you all Merry Christmas, I will still come back, i am not leaving for good. Haha, don't misunderstand my meaning. i can still be very active even i am in Malaysia. God bless you all, God bless South Africa.